help me

Angin berkejaran menerobos tubuhku yang hampa
Kesunyian menukik menusuk hatiku yang telah tiada
Aku tak tau apa yg kurasa
Apakah aku punah?
Karna rasanya aku terasing dari dunia
Apakah aku tidak kasat mata?
Karna tak ada yg mau menatapku
Apakah aku mati?
Karna rasanya aku lupa caranya bernafas

Aku terkunci dalam ruang hampa udara
Aku tak tau jalan keluarnya
Dan tak ada yg tau aku telah hilang
Aku mau berlari
Membawa ceritaku yabg telah busuk
Aku mau pergi
Membuang kenanganku yang telah mati

Aku terkunci
Aku tak bisa pergi
Aku
Aku
Aku
Aku
Aku
Terkunci

i'm not OKAY

Saya memang mampu menampakkan wajah itu
Saya selalu datar agar tak terbaca
Tak ada yg tau hati saya rusak
Hati saya hanya tersisa serpihan-serpihan kecil saja
Jiwa saya sakit
Sejujurnya saya tidak mampu
Tapi kemana lagi saya harus mengadu?
Saya berkali-kali ingin mati
Tapi begitu banyak pertimbangan yang memberatkan
Saya tidak mau pergi sebagai manusia yang lepas tanggung jawab
Saya ingin teriak
Saya sendirian
Saya bukannya kuat saya hanya tak bisa lagi mengeluh
Saya lupa caranya bermanja-manja
Saya lupa caranya berbagi kesedihan
Saya lupa caranya meluapkan kepedihan ini
Saya lupa
Karna saya terbiasa sendiri dalam diam
Saya tidak berani bersuara
Saya takut ada yang mendengar
Saya menangis dalam diam
Saya meronta dalam diam
Saya sedih
Saya sepi
Dalam diam
Dan tidak
Saya tidak baik-baik saja

i ain't numb SHIT!!!

My heart is sick
I'm such a great pretender
But I'm totally sick
I can't handle this fucking life
Should I give up?

Yes miracle doesn't happen
Shit does happen

Here I am crying without tears
Screaming without voices
Alone
Nobody knows
I wanna die seriously

:( :( :( :( :( :( :(

i wish you were here

I don't know
I just need somebody
I don't know
I feel so alone
I don't know

I just try real hard to survive
I guess I need someone to be here
I wanna talk I wanna laugh
I just couldn't do that alone
I can't do all of those things with all of this fucking people
I can't find the right person

I promise to myself
I will never ever trust anyone else but me
I swear I couldn't get through the heartsick period again and again
I just wanna be happy

I feel so alone
I wish you were here
I wish somebody is here

i'm not a LIAR

I'm sad
But it's not because of you
I just don't get it
Why I could be that stupid?
For believing every single things that you said
For being so tolerant to your immature attitude
I should know it
We shouldn't be together

About all of this mess
Let me fix it by myself

Just bye

kasiiiaaaaannnnn hahaha

Ada banyak orang yang menolak untuk menerima dirinya sendiri
Mereka mati-matian menyangkal diri mereka sendiri
Dan semua tingkah laku mereka palsu

Pertanyaannya adalah "apakah sebegitu memalukannya diri kalian sampai gag punya keberanian buad jdi diri sendiri?"
Mereka norak
Knapa? Karena mereka berlaku konyol untuk terlihat baik
Please,itu konyol

Mereka biasanya berpura-pura senang
Jelas mereka tidak bahagia
Mereka ditolak semua orang termasuk keluarga mereka sendiri
Itulah alasan mereka menyangkal diri sendiri
Terlalu banyak penolakan

Jujur saya kasian
Apa daya
Mereka memang menyedihkan

:D

just gonna be a FOOL one time

Yes I admit it I ever be a stupid foolish little girl
At that time I was acting like a crazy lady in love
That wasn't love that was a terrible stupidity
I was in love with the wrong guy in the wrong situation
All I did was something wrong

Then I realized it, at some point I felt enough with that shitty things
So I finished it all
That crap was over and I couldn't be better than this

That shit gave me a big bloody mark
But I don't even care I could fix everything that I want
This is my life and I'm the boss of everything
I won't let myself stuck in the pathetic hole

I could survive and ignore them
Everyone could make mistakes
The differences is only about how big is the bruises that we have made
I don't fucking care if they give me that judgement look

I live my life in my own way
I made a misrakes and I fix it
They should be ashamed because they only yap
But if they were me I don't think they could stand strong

Life is hard
But we are strong enough to fight for it!