im so stupid

i hate it!
you know what
whenever im with you i feel that butterflies in my stomach, literally!
and my mouth just shut
i cant say anything
im so nervous
darn it!
i was like junior high school girl who fell in love with her friend!
why oh why?????!!!!!!!!!!!

gonna meet you there

gonna see your smile
hello mister COLD
:)

maybe i call it LOVE

this several days my mood was so mellow and i hate it
cause i cant stop thinking bout you!
that's unfair while you dont even care that im exist
i guess
--"

i miss my MISTER COLD

your carelessness just make me really pissed and crazy at the same time
cause your carelessness not annoying at all
and it's kinda cute for me
--"
supercrazy me

i am a stupid stalker --"

cause i'm so in love with you
and you make me so nervous around you
so i can't let you know how i'm feeling inside

miss you
please get back home

mister COLD

love is just a stupidity, but how about all of my feelings for you, is it a stupidity too?

just a stupid thought
maybe it's just because OF this fucking trouble-sleepping

i just read some novel and all of those love stories..
they gives us happpy ending
well actually
the first book talks about their struggle to be together
but the second book just told us how happy they are after that long journey

well well
love isn't that easy i guess
cause after all this time
i still couldn't taste the sweet thing about love

all of these guys just make me sick and disgusted by their attitude
well except this litlle mister cold

he was there
he was giving his best
and i was a silly girl who just wanna have fun

i was falling into another guy
many guys actually
but all of them couldn't satisfy me
cause deep inside my heart this mister cold always gat his part

now after i'm falling head over heals for him
he just ignores me

i don't even know if he notice me
maybe for him i was just another distraction
or just a FRIEND
not even best friend

i wanna let him know
but i just can't

and i just realized that love just about stupidity
and i'm sick of that things

i don't wanna be in love
but i just keep loving him
i love him
and i know it is love
this ain't another lust
this is love

but it's just too little too late
isn't it?

i wish you could give me another chance

i wish you were the one that i'll spend my life with
i wish it was you
i wish
i wish
i wish

well mister cold
please
stop playing this hard to get games
cause i couldn't be more careless than this
and it's tiring
i want you
NOW

electric guitar

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MD63j20VMRU&feature=related

this guy reminds me of someone with that electric guitar
gossshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh