it's always been you

how i could let myself to let you go?
stupid

bye-bye seems great!

people hates bye
so do i
but when suddenly i said that word
it feels nothing
then it feels good!!!!
yes i'm free
i just realize that why i feel unhappy
because i'm stuck in the fucking situation with fucking wrong guy
now i'm totally happy

bye-bye seems great!

well...

i guess we all wants to live in a fairytale with a happy ending and sparkling sky
i guess we all wants to wake up and smile to the bright sunshine and singing with beautiful little bird
i guess we all wants to sleep in the fluffy golden bed and ends that day with a big smile around our faces

but there's no fairytale
only a fucking big fat liar reality

i keep wondering how to make the miracle comes and stay with us
i'm praying everyday
but miracle doesn't happen
unluckily SHIT DOES HAPPEN

well, what should i do now?
crying and hiding under my bed?

no i couldn't do that
this life makes me stuck
there's no place to go
i couldn't hide

so i face the truth
and try to deal with it
i'm becoming numb and crazy

i'm sleeping with a same nightmare
i'm walking on the same road
and i'm regretting one same mistake over and over again

well,
there's no fairytale at all
is there any hope?