painful headache

the goddamn pain or the tiring anger or the ache of the stupid heart
one of them kissed my forehead and left this fucking painful headache
im not tired of trying
im not tired of this things
im not tired of you
im tired of you behavior
and seriously you should realize that there's a time for you to shut

im getting use to it
but still it's not hard to be pissed if you keep angry and selfish
it's not hard to be pissed while i'm trying so hard to be patient and you keep mocking around about how careless i am and how i'm lack of understanding
it's not hard to be pissed when you don't even realized all i want is a moment of silent and listening to what i want

give me one moment to be the one who could act like a bitch and still be the right guy after all
why it's so hard to holding back for someone you love that much?
you said that you love me more than yourself over and over again
where's that love?

sorry for questioning
but really this headache painfully killing me

pain

ketika semuanya tidak seperti yang kita mau
ketika sepertinya hidup bermusuhan dan menganggap kita lelucon konyol
ketika semua terasa salah
ketika semua terasa sakit

bahkan setiap langkah terasa berdarah-darah
setiap kata terasa mencekik
semua sakit merambah
hati saya sakit
tubuh saya lelah
emosi saya habis-habisan
saya merasa sampah
saya kalah

sungguh tidak ada yang bisa saya lakukan
memang saya yang memulai
saya yang menghancurkan
tapi tidak bisakah saya diberi kelonggaran
saya sudah cukup bersabar menjalani segala ampas busuk ini
kini saya hanya ingin mati

saya memiliki adiksi atas rasa sakit
tapi kini sakit itu membuat saya sakau
dan saya lelah
saya menyerah

rain over my eyes

i'm stupidly sad as hell
i hate this stupid situation
i can't change anything
and i'm stupidly drag you into this mess

maybe from the very first time i shouldn't be selfish and just let you go
you deserve better :(

i don't know what to do right now
can't blame you to be upset
can i blame myself
yes maybe i can
can i blame the situation
no i can't

and now i'm crying like stupid
it's raining outside
it's raining inside