wish i was wrong

i'm a really pessimistic person
cause i learnt it hard way
it's hard to watch your father falling apart and forget it just like that
he told me that i should see anything by its bad side so it won't be that hurt when it really happens

so that's becoming my habit
everything could be really bad in my sight
and i'm scared too much
and i always feel that all good things will come to an end in any minute
and i wish that i was wrong
cause i'm really scared to lose him
i want him just for a little long moment
idk what happen next but just give me time

fuck it
i'm getting sad with no reason (again)
i could be so sad for something that not even happen (yet, maybe? idk)

okay i'll just stop
i wish i was wrong i wish happy ending really does exist
i wish